Wednesday, 25 December 2013

A Half Love Story!!

Each and every one of us has felt that.Mostly like in movies and in novels, but not all love stories have happy endings, some have even better ending.Such was mine.
It was never a coincidence.Each and every thing was beautifully planned by him (..of course the almighty God!!).
From the first eye clash to the first hello..
from her first smile to the infinite talks..
from her first bye to the timeless waiting..
each and every moments are engraved somewhere in my heart, deep down the bloodstream at some corner unknown.
Like all teenagers, I was rather most confused about infatuation and love,among all.(..I think so..!!)

It all started with a new session of my school and a new turn in my life.A skip in my heartbeat in those initial days after seeing her every morning in class,was something which I never felt before.She wasn't much different than other girls but there was something that was special, a soft spark, a new freshness and a deadly look(..a heart killer look..!!)After few eye clashes and with a help of a common friend(..luckily..!!..) the friendship kicked in between us.Soon we became very good friends. I always loved to spent time with her and talk to her.Everyday, I used to run an extra mile on bicycle while following her and then riding back to the strength of my last breath, to reach home on time and avoid my mom's scolding.I, rather an average student before meeting her, soon became one of the studious student so as to improve my impression in front of her.(..and it worked also!!..).Those days mobiles were not that handy but landlines were an easy option.A regular chat over phone for hours deepened the roots of the budding relationship and life became an easy opinion.
Nevertheless, nothing is life long neither was my infatuation(..which I recognized later..!!).With the completion of 10th boards,we left for further studies to different places and in no time the call frequency reduced to zero.. and from "something more than friends" it came to "just friends".I made my mind to ignore her but it wasn't that easy as it appears,thereafter when I failed to forget her then I did which I otherwise wouldn't have done.I proposed her on the New Year eve .. but as expected, i didn't got a "blunt no" instead a confusing voice.. and those three meaningful magical words became meaningless for me and I was left with nothing except a lone heart.
A year later,on the new year itself ,I again proposed and she again denied but this time I was a different guy, a more mature, enough to give a person a chance to improve his mistake but not that dumb to give further any part of my lifetime.. and I moved on with whatever I was left!
Today, I am still single but mature enough to differentiate between love and infatuation,in search for a better future.

Tuesday, 10 December 2013

The Greatest truth!!

Night sky is one of the most amazing thing to be observed during night time.I was very fond of watching and feeling the presence of stars and the moon.But, because of work load in my final year of school, it was not possible for me to find much time for other activities, still I used to take a walk in the park near my place of stay to be touch with night sky.There a couple.. who seemed to be married for quite a long period of time and were in their last stage of life..( it appeared to me!!).. also used to take night walk in that park in which I used to go.I felt very good seeing them together taking a walk and continuing to support each other in that old age.Watching them together taking a walk had become a part of my daily routine.I always tried to walk near them so that I can hear what they are discussing about..(.. i was just keen to hear them.. nothing else..Mind it!!).. They always used to talk about their daily routine ,diseases ,and family matters.
But ,one evening they were not talking too much and had a grave look on their face.That day was not a very good day for the old man.His friend ,probably 2nd last in his group, died on that day leaving him alone among his friend circle in this World.That day he was left only with his wife to support him emotionally and physically thereafter.
I was disheartened to the bottom of my heart.I  left the place with out a whisper leaving the couple to mourn for the depart.That day I realized the greatest truth of the world which is not even considered before we reach to that point.. i.e. "Separation from loving ones".Its very true that we come alone and we go alone but we can never live alone.Parents, no matter what, are most important to any individual but to that extent we also need a friend or a husband or a wife.Life is a long journey.We meet with a number of people.Some teach us ,we teach some.Some come and go but few remain forever.These people are FRIENDS,or a wife or a husband who can mean a lot to any person.Its quite painful to imagine such a separation but its the truth and the greatest truth.One day or the other each one of us has to face this. Thats how life is!!  

Thursday, 5 December 2013

A Missing Moment!

To be precise it was around 4:30 am when I was there in the football ground standing right under the light, not from any halogen bulb rather in starlight.
Starlight? just wait a second; let me think.. yes! It was a perfect new moon night. Delicious aroma from the hot cup of tea from the departmental store of my hostel and the freshness of the morning hue made me to think of a past incident when I was in my pre-teens.

Everyone of us has at least once in their lifetime, slept in moonlit or starlit night. Have you ever thought of reaching to those glittering little object just over your head in the sky? or to have a closer glimpse of these figures? Hopefully your answer would have been a Yes! I, belonging to your generation, thought exactly what I specified. But this was not all, that I imagined of! While under these intangible objects, I had had warmth of my Father's company which I imagined to have for the time immaterial.We use to lay at our terrace on mattress and talk for long time, sometimes because it was quite pleasing, but most of the time forced by the poor electricity supply in my area. I used to talk with him about the stars, the moon, also the moving lights i.e. Aeroplanes and other curiosity topics. He used to answer to most of my questions as per his knowledge and also told me about the people of the world, and the hardships he faced in his life, his experiences and other irrelevant things which were out of my field of interest, as I was mere a kid. I thought to be with him always. But with the flow of time every possible happiness that once brought smile in those nights, are making my eyes wet today.

Being the oldest son in my family I had responsibilities to shoulder and to hold on their expectations I had to move out from the shadow of my parents to tackle the world. Today, these starlight gave me a reminder of those memorable night I had spent with my father and the priceless sacrifices made by him, to make me able to fulfil all my dreams.